Hey guys, it's me. Kyle. In case you forgot me.

I'm not dead, you know. In fact, I'm active all over the internet. Except on deviantart. Which makes me feel kinda bad. So allow me to update you briefly, since I can't remember anything of import that I should tell you.

Except this.


For the moment, I've sort of drifted away from the manga style of drawing. I've developed a more cartoonish sort of style that I really love drawing and am better at doing. I will be writing a weekly comic (ahem, I hope) and uploading it onto [link]

That's all I have to say for now. I'll keep you guys posted.

Peace.

I promise I'll stop bitching and do some real artwork, some real Random Comics, and post a real journal. Soon. I swear it to you. OK? DON'T LEAVE ME



So Marigold, my love, you've had too much to drink
And I need not remind you, our discount tickets for this sinking ship
Take-backs and sweet regrets, that's all that we have left
No one is looking out for anyone but number one
One to one, two to dance, we all get our sweet romance
Though sour grapes will turn to wine its all just vinegar with time
And oh, I want to know, we all want to know
How can anybody treat somebody so?
She said it hurts too much
I said it will never hurt enough
No one will ever see these cuts
No one will ever call this bluff
But that's just the way that it goes
And when he left us he said, "It's not so bad"
That motherfucker he took everything we had
And when I'm thinking back, I'm counting all the ways
Nobody helped us so we dreamt of better days
And we sang: "Yeah that's just the way that it goes"
Yeah, we used to be in love (my love!), but now we're just in like
And we broke all our promises and baby that ain't right
Because you don't know what it's like to lose it all
Take it back, take it back because you don't know what it's like to be on the receiving end of it all
No! no! You were not on the receiving end of it all
You beg and plead, but no one here can save you
Why would they try when they can't quite save themselves?
So Marigold, someday we'll have to write a script
But I won't stop denying ashamed of all the selfish things we did
Dropped out of every single friendship that you had
They nearly loved you, but you never could have loved somebody back
Tell me of your sorrows; tell me everything from the start
I'd like to do my part to help a friend in need
I said you could come to me, but when you needed someone most, I wasn't there,
I wasn't even...

And a happy Christmas to all you goyim out there.

So. 2008, huh? What do you guys think, huh? If you ask me, it's scary. I mean, I'm halfway through high school almost. Soon I'll be a junior. Then a senior. Then I hit the road. And same goes for a lot of my good friends. And of course, some of my freshman friends have longer to go, but still, the "end" is so near...And I'm scared.

Who would have thought that all these crazy things would've happened this year? Halo 3...Gorillaz D-Sides...4chan getting hacked...Me losing a girlfriend and going through therapy because of it...My friends going through shit and shine...And I might risk being cheesy, but tears, anger, laughter, hugs, kisses, love, hate, death...Pretty much every emotion I can think of has happened. I had expected that 2007 would end happily and crazy, all my friends close together and having fun. Turns out that I was really wrong on some parts, though, too.

Stephanie abandoned me and some of her friends. My grandma died. My friends have horrible problems. I am struggling in school because I can no longer concentrate.

I just hope so much that this year is better. And I hope the same for all my friends. Happy f***ing New Year, guys...

I'm not going to attempt to date anybody, not until I receive closure from Stephanie. As in, not until she talks to me and we're either friends, enemies, or lovers. Whatever. I'm just not going to do it. I know a lot of people have said "Oh, well, there's the chance that you'll fall in love with the new girl." For one thing, I doubt that. There's waaaaay too much left over from what happened between Stephanie and I, and I doubt I'll be over this any time soon.

And also, think...It'll just mess a girl up if I freaking USE her to attempt to get over Stephanie, which would most likely be a failed attempt any which way. Let's just say, I'll feel terrible for the girl, and the girl would be upset too (unless she's a hardass XD). So yeah, no rebound dating for me.

In other news, I had an eventful weekend. I marched in the Festival of Lights parade which was, y’know…OK. Ten minutes of marching straight forward and playing Frosty The Snowman isn’t my idea of a great time. But hey, the bandies are always cool.

I also went to the East Winter Formal with Ali, Therese, and Lydia, and that was fun. We had some laughs, danced, caught up and saw old friends. It was nice seeing them all.

Oh, and on Friday I saw The Odyssey production put on by North. It was fantastic! It really made me want to act again, badly, so I’ll probably try to do Showcase, which is next up in the play lineup. The only thing with the play was, well, I found out that day that Stephanie was in the play. -_- The problem with that was, the whole play, I was distracted and taunted by her dazzlingly gorgeous looks. Eh…It kind of hurt. I had no idea she was into acting. See? Something we both enjoyed. We still have a lot in common.

But I digress. If all goes well, I’ll celebrate Nile’s 16th birthday party next this coming Friday, and that’s awesome. For now, peace, friends.

-Kyle

OK, so, guys, I know it’s been a long time since I’ve made even a half-decent journal entry on here, let alone some effin’ ARTWORK, but please forgive me. I’ve been supah-busy. Anyways, I suppose I’ll start off saying two things. One: How was everybody’s Thanksgiving? Two: I suppose I’ll tell you how my Thanksgiving went.

So for Thanksgiving my family went to Ohio to visit my grandfather, Aunts, Uncles, and cousins, and other assorted friends to the family. All in all, it was a very eventful trip and I really enjoyed myself. Anyways, we hung out, ate tons of turkey, mashed potatoes, and other vital Thanksgiving foodstuffs, opened a couple early Channukah presents (some of us only get to see one another once a year) and just had a good time in general. I got to play some Assassin’s Creed, which was pretty cool, and helped myself to a little Halo 3 as my cousin had brought his Xbox 360. I spent the night with my cousins (22 and 25 years old) and we ate half of a cherry pie and played Assassin’s Creed until 3:00 am. Something that was fun for me this time around was the fact that my cousin, like me, is an internet geek, so there were a lot of inside jokes we could chuckle over behind the family’s backs.

On Friday, my cousins took my sister and I to the Rock and Roll Hall of Fame, and to me, that is where the gods reside. Like, the spirits of the gods or…something weird like that whatever. So that was really cool.

Yeah, basically, Thanksgiving was great. Now I require some input…regarding Stephanie again. Yup. Anyways, My mind has basically gotten to the point where I don’t act sad or miserable, etc., any more. It’s all just kind of hidden and it’s going to grow and grow until all my sadness bursts forth again, but not for a while. For now I can go on pretending to be happy and attempt to focus better. Inside, I’m completely torn up over this and it seems like she’s just hurting me over and over and over…and over again. I KNOW THIS ALL SOUNDS EMO BUT GET OVER IT. Anyway, my question is, should I “try” to “see other girls?” I’m not sure if I can. I know I still love her and I know that if some girl is convinced that I’ve changed my feelings for her, they’d end up getting very hurt in the end. I’m just thinking, though, whether it might help a little to, er, “see” some girl for a little a while, just to help keep my bursting bubble at bay. I really just NEED somebody to care for like I did for her, it feels so good to care for somebody like that, and I miss being able to do that. But if I end up with another girl, I’ll still have the same feelings for Stephanie, so I’m kinda worried that it’d piss off a girl to find out that I used her to help keep myself calm about a previous girl, one I’m not over at all. ‘Course, Stephanie did that with Derek (or so I hear) and, well. They’re still talking. Even though were angry at each other for a short period of time. Fancy that. BUT SHE STILL WON’T AT LEAST BE MY FRIEND. Whatever. I don’t get it. Anyways, I kinda rambled on and this ending bit probably doesn’t make as much sense as I hoped it would, but I had to hurry. Please give me your suggestions. BYE.

PS: STREETLIGHT MANIFESTO ROCKS.